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A snippet of my long journey from constantly feeling fear
to know I am blessed to serve.

My backstory: Since birth, I have had the gift of communicating with those who have passed. For several decades, it was an unpleasant reminder that I was different and that my childhood fears of monsters under the bed were well-founded. 

For most of my childhood and into my early teens, I walked around scared because I felt the presence of shadow people. It took my father's death in 1986 to realize that I had still been talking to him as if he were here. That prompted me to explore what was happening to me. 

But it wasn't until my early 40s that I discovered what my heart always knew. One of my hypnotherapy clients told me he knew I was a medium, and hearing that caused a massive anxiety attack. For the next few weeks, my chest ached, and I couldn't breathe properly. I refused to use the word 'medium' to describe myself.

A small psychic fair came to town, and I planned to go, which wasn't unusual as I was always fascinated with that type of show. On this day, I remember it like yesterday. I scanned the room, waiting for an energetic connection to get a reading. An older woman passed by, frantically looking around the room, not knowing what to do because the psychic she wanted to see was busy. I didn't understand why she was frantic, but as I brushed close to her, a message from her husband came in. I asked if she would like me to tell her, and when I did, the tears rolled down her eyes. She had a knowing that he was close and wasn't going to be able to stay.

I didn't know I was doing anything out of the ordinary.

I was still upset from the anxiousness I was experiencing, and I showed her little patience when I sat down with a medium. She was kind and just smiled at my intense energy. I asked her why I had been feeling so anxious for weeks. She smiled, glanced up from her tarot cards, and said,

"Because you're a medium, and it’s time to stop playing and take responsibility."

I immediately fell apart, sobbing, my whole body shaking. I had finally heard the truth. I immediately remembered at Lilydale in 1986, a medium telling me I would be doing this on stage one day. I didn't believe her for a minute.

Even with my breakdown with that medium that day, my mind still wouldn't accept it. Years later, I played with the idea but didn't accept its power – I was scared of the responsibility.

I returned and served as a guest medium at Lilydale, a place close to my heart and, unknowingly to me, the beginning of my journey. Twenty-five plus years later, I gladly serve Spirit with wisdom and integrity.

In 1994, I graduated college in Social Services, and since then, I have studied many disciplines and received multiple certificates, including certified hypnotherapist, studied the laws of the universe under Concept Therapy©, the Tao, and much more over the last 30+ years. I'm an advocate for women's abuse issues, having lived for years with mental, emotional, and physical abuse in my 20s and 30s.

Book links will take you to Amazon Canada; please be sure to change to your country.

Pam also recently wrote short, rhyming stories for small children, which were all based on her love of silly rhymes she made up to teach her grandchildren life lessons. 
Fun, short rhyming story books by Pam (Nanna) teach young children joy, love, and acceptance. Available on Amazon!

2 stories in one book! 
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